Worries in Kovin head.
Beginning of this week the initial part of the news make me exited, felt like I’m in the heaven, after the google button, it changed from heaven in to hell. I received sms from ASA UK study agent of one of my application accepted and with a offer letter, but the offer letter with a condition mean that is a conditional offer letter from Southampton University that made me suffer the worries that I discovered since I was young – my level of English language. I need to take IELTS - English level test that make the final decision whether UK or Tanah Melayu. I already spread the news to my family member uncles and aunties about the overseas study that I will be going; this is an embarrassment for me and my family if I can’t make it. That left me no choice must get band 6 for IELTS that worries me a lot.
Left two months for me to improve the English language standard that suppose to be completed in 20 years of studies. I need to quit my job register for IELTS preparation course, pay like few K of money buying a hope. A man with no job, no income; need to pay for meals, rental, utilities, and tuition fee.
Maybe I will be no place to sleep after this few days, if still can’t search for a room. Force to move out from this current house that I already consider as a home, because can’t find house mate and unable to pay for RM 1000 share by two of us. Already 3 weeks with the note sticking on the yellow gate.
Is the attitude that I’m having considered as optimistic or pessimistic, I’m confuse!!
Four more days till April, somehow still not search for any rooms available for Sean and me.
Money, UK, IELTS, Room, honor, job, tuition, direction, hope, MA, study, wish, are all the worries that I’m spinning in my head with question mark and unpredictability. Possible that I can improve my English Language from band 0 to brand 6 the minimum requirement by UK Universities in two months.
WAIT AND SEE THE FUTURE IS IN MY HAND ALL THE HOPE, PRIDE, HONOR.
